Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Hello and Good-bye


What would make me want to resurrect my blog after its' death of natural causes after a more than two year absence? Well, a lot of things have happened, both good and bad over this two year period and I just need to share them. After living in Kansas for 9 years, Jeff, Kim and family moved back to Utah and now live only 50 minutes away which has blessed our lives immensely. We were so surprised and thrilled to hear they are expecting twin boys and can't wait to hold them! Rand received his MBA from BYU after coming back from Memphis and he and Suz live in Lindon, which is even closer than Provo which gives me a darling new baby Cole and a big brown-haired boy (as Cayden would say) to spoil, along with Jeff's kids. Julie has been back for several visits (I LOVED the long one this summer especially) and I have been able to fly there and spend time with her a few times, which I loved. We helped Lindsay move from South Weber to Kaysville, and then to my Mom's condo in So Ogden and she is moving closer to graduating next spring. I love hanging out with her and seeing all the movies Dad doesn't really want to see. We have dealt with the difficulties of my mom's aging with its' dementia which means that sometimes I am dealing with someone I don't even know (or like :( ) On the bright side on the good days I get to visit with the mom I haven't seen in 6 or 8 years - the one who notices things about me and tells me how much she loves me and is grateful for all I do for her. We moved her to Chancellor Gardens Assisted Living and things are better there for the most part. We've had two wonderful family reunions at Lava and a delightful one at Regi's where we got closer as families and it made me again grateful for the blessing of family. But what brings me here today is that today I had to take my Mollie (Little Miss Mollie) to the vet and hold her so she wouldn't be scared as she made her way back to heaven. Was it hard? Yes. Why did I put myself through it? Because I wanted to do the best thing for her because she has been the best thing for me for 8 plus years. She has been there for me when I was sad and lonely or when Carl was gone. And she has been there when I've cried for joy because my kids were coming back home to live. The thing is--she has always been there for me, so I wanted to be there for her. So even though today is a day of sadness, it is a day of joy because I have had her with me these past 8 years. And now Lindsay and I will go out and find another little ball of joy to get me through the tough and joyful times. AND I WILL BE GRATEFUL.....

10 comments:

Regina said...

So sorry. I know how hard that is. You made the right choice.

Anna said...

Oh so sorry Marilyn. They do so much for us sometimes. You are so brave and strong for going.
I'm so happy you updated your blog. So sorry to see mollie go. :(
Take your time before you get a new ball of fur.
I hope you do something nice and fun to celebrate all the good. :)
Love you!!!

Cindy said...

So sorry to hear about your cute little doggie. I am sure she had a wonderful life, spending time with your family and being spoiled in a good way :)

Kari said...

I'm sorry to hear about Mollie. I haven't yet put a dog to sleep, but I know it's inevitable and I'm not looking forward to it!

Suz said...

We're all going to miss her quite a bit- I know Cayden will for sure. It's so strange too because you guys had just gotten Mollie when Rand and I started dating- she was such a great dog. So sorry you had to go through such a sad day, we'll be up there soon to cheer you up!

Max said...

I am so sorry Marilyn, She was good company for you. Hope you find another one just a fun.

Kim said...

I'm so sorry about Mollie. Sometimes the right thing to do is the hardest. It would have been harder to watch her get more sick. The kids are pretty sad too, but I thought it best to tell them because they liked Mollie. They will love the new pal too, but Mollie was her own special self and they needed to know. Anyway, we hope to see you soon to cheer you up.

red said...

I love you Aunt Marilyn I'm so so sorry about your sweet dog. I hope you didn't have to go to the vet alone. Anytime you feel lonely we live about two minutes from you give us a call.

Michelle said...

So sorry about Mollie, I'll be honest I started crying when I read that you took her to the vet and what a good companion she was for you. I truly am sorry and feel your pain.
I love dogs and know how much they can become part of you.
Happy to see an update from you. Make sure you update again at least when you get your new friend.

Robin said...

Have I told you lately how much I love you? Have I told you how grateful I am for the care you give our family, especially mother? Have I told you how much I admire the person you are?

I'm sorry for your loss, I know the heart ache that comes with it.
One of these days Brent and I will have to work up the courage to say good-bye to our poor old, blind Abby.